Feel !!!

                Its been a while i didn't use English as my blog language, that's because i don't have the so call 'feel' that u used to have in the last few years. The so called 'feel' that i have will come to my heart when i think of my sweet and pain memories and listen to love songs at the same time. I tried to find that feel back but its gone and is not the same feeling ever again. 

                 That's because last time i used to be a lover boy, a naive lover boy who thinks if i use all my heart to love a girl i will eventually succeed. Well, it did succeed eventually but it did not last long. I used too much of my heart to love a girl and forgot to love myself, causing "lack of love" for myself. 

                 Until now, i did not like or love a girl as much compare to last time, maybe i'm a coward, maybe i'm not her cup of tea or vice verse. Whatever the reason is, i don't wish to love a girl right now because of the reality of the future that i have to face, money. Very sure i have enough money for myself in the future because i consider myself not a big spender compare to others, but what if i have a girlfriend and turns out she ends up be my wife. 

                 Now, the million dollar question, will i have enough money to support my family? (if i have one), will i have enough time to accompany them? will i have enough knowledge to lead my family?. My friend always ask me why i need to think those problems that haven't or never exist in the first place. I have to be at least aware of it right?. Don't think the problems doesn't mean it won't come to me.

               I have to admit my future post maybe will be more in reality and less in fantasy as i getting more realistic than ever. Maybe sounds a bit weird but that's the thing that keep's me moving on. So, another day folks!!!  

最後一次

在我最後一次　决定放手之前
我想對你說　我愛你
在我懷裡　捨不得放棄
心裡有千萬語還沒說給你聽

我使盡全力　不想放手
這次告別就不能再相遇
不能再陪你　但不要忘記
你曾經答應我　你會好好活下去

要散了　要去好遠的地方
不能再陪你　等不到那天
所有回憶　抹去卻並不容易
缘分由天決定　不要太固执

我永遠愛你...

幼稚完

没看连戏剧习惯的我，
最终还是看了最近的“雷霆扫毒“
故事蛮不错，爱情故事也蛮感动，
但打动我的心的是林峰那首歌，“幼稚完“
他的一部分歌词：

"幾千天近況幸福嗎
 每日忙碌嗎
 仍然是那麼認真嗎
 可有新戀人
 成熟的戀人
 成熟到沒再共你吵架"

我想，如果你们彼此分手了或不能在一起，但又想念对方，多多少少都会问 这几句话吧
虽然有些幼稚，但所有美好的回忆都是次从幼稚开始阿
我想有一天我会亲自问你这几句话，一定会！！！

可惜 (copy from youtube)

海鳥和魚是兩種非常不同的動物， 牠們各有既有的生活方式，自己的世界。 日子久了， 這一切都已經變成習慣， 再毫無新鮮感可言。 於是彼此對對方身處的世界充滿憧憬和期盼， 希望有朝一日能到彼此身處的世界探索一番。 自從那一天， 海鳥和魚成為了好朋友， 約定了每一天交流各自世界的經歷和美好， 由旭日初升談論至皓月當空之時， 每天如是，並無例外。 每天都談得莫名的興奮， 久久不願離去。 有一天， 牠們甚至訴說自己宏大的抱負， 希望身歷其境去繼續探索這美好的世界。 牠們彼此都甚覺志趣相投， 日子一天一天過去， 不知不覺間不知道只是愛上了彼此的世界， 還是已經愛上了對方。 鳥兒有一天終於忍不住開口， 問魚兒願不願意跟隨牠一起探索這世界的美好？ 魚兒當時或許興奮過盛， 忘記了自己的限制， 急不及待的答應了。 可是， 當魚兒伏在鳥兒的身上往上飛的時候， 一次又一次從鳥兒身上跌回海裡... 令牠變得一次比一次更加沮喪， 牠按捺不住自己的情緒， 終於承認自己的限制... 最終還是放棄了飛上雲霄的念頭。 但牠仍提出帶鳥兒探索自己的世界， 因為牠希望自己即使不能實現自己的夢想， 也希望對方能夠實現自己的抱負。

Memory

Hearing those love songs,
viewing all the pictures and conversations,
bring back all valuable the memories,
it doesn't matter either pain or sweet,
as long as you are there

I did say i move on,
but i didn't say i move on without you,
I did say i let go
but i didn't say i let go the memory as well

As crazy as it sounds,
for once i really feel this relationship is really worth for me to go for it,
at least i did what i really should to do since from the start, confess to you
neither accept nor reject from you, but what more can i ask?
Here, i just want to say sorry to you
for still loving you in my heart.

我爱你

这些年以来，我都一直在暗恋你，我越了解你，就越爱你，可是，就是没勇气跟你表白或追你，因为追着你的对象是另有其人， 几年前我想跟你表白，但同一时间 有人想要追你，我只好放弃，默默的爱你。所以我一直跟你顶嘴，逼你做你不喜欢的东西，就是要让你讨厌我。这些年我有不少心酸，但已经习惯了。当中你也有给我一些甜蜜的时期，我已满足，不敢再要求多了，谢谢你。直到现在我才有勇气跟你说这些，请原谅我自私的行为，有缘再见。

倒带与彩虹

你受够了等待，
所以你想离开，
但我手放不开，
我哭着求你留下来，
求你别没收我的爱，
但我终是太晚才明白，
只有彩虹能拉近我与你的倒带。