Wake Up!!!

wake up mason, wake up
u play enough, enjoy enough, think too much enough,
maybe is time to serious? think so
is time to start chasing and fullfill your dream, your long time dream.
start to focus on some important things.
start to plan something big, something about future
start to make things right, do things right and do the right things
all you have to do is just think a little bit mature, just a little bit only,
and that will lead you the way, your way!!!

吃醋了

不知道为什么，心还是有点酸酸的，
难道开始真正的吃醋了?
每当想起你们两个，心就会开始不舒服，
我真的很想和你表白，但没勇气，
为了大局为重，只好放在心里或忘记这件事，
我真的很想知道我是不是真的很爱你，
但这已经不重要了，因为你有了他，
我也不想破坏你们的幸福，
只好在你们的后面默默地伤心，默默地哭。
真希望快点忘掉这件事，
继续我的路程。

Feel Down

你们可能觉得我过得很开心，很简单。
其实在你们错了，是，在你们面前我很傻，
很好笑，几乎每天都跟你们讲笑话，但回到家时或离开学校那一瞬间，
就开始情绪低潮，尤其是这个月。当我听到某些消息是，表面上很开心，
但，心里就伤心的很，唯一能控制我的情绪就是不理，但因为某些原因我不得不理。
每当他有心事时，我一定会抽出时间和他聊天，聊到他想开为止。
每当看到她时，心里很想对她温柔些，但为了他的未来的幸福，只好以顶嘴为称呼
没办法啦，谁叫我没用，没勇气去做某些事。
“竟然推出比赛，只好全心全力帮队友打气，只好希望下一场努力争取表现, 为自己争光"。

Honestly, i don't know how to face you like before i did, how to threat you the way i did.
I can't smile in front of you, can't cry in front of you yet can't hide from you.
All i can do is just pretend, nothing happen. But i don't know how long i can do this.
I really reallu wish i can have a short travel and avoid any of these problems.
Hope the Bonggawan trip will help me open my mind.

Action speak louder than words

Recently, i finally realised i spoke too much and did so little things.
Like they said, action speaks louder than words,
All these days i only know how to 'talk' yet didn't take any action at all.
One of the example, Love.
I always told my friends i will find this girl, i will threat her like this and like that,
but those are just words, without action those words are nothing but rubbish.
I admire few girls before but due to my selfish thinking, those girls had found their prince.
My heart full with regret and sadness.
I can't blame anyone because i didn't take any action and not even at least try at all.
All this things happen because i spoke too much.
So, i wish the next girl that i admire i will take action first, words later.

To someone, please don't give up

Day by day pass by,
the string start to get stronger and tighter,
nobidy know how to hard to cut it and nobody will,
only the 2 owners of the string know how,
as days pass longer,
1 of the owner want to cut it because only the owner know why,
but the other owner don't wish to cut it and wish to continue that way
so the other owner choose to stay, for now.
Now, i wish the 2 owner will try everything to make the string more stronger and more tighter,
and don't have the will to cut it.
Gambateh both of you.

Please don't make it happen

I feel something will gonna happen,
something that i never wish to happen in my life,
because if it happens, a tragedy will happen at the same time,
so, i wish that thing just stay thay way,
nothing more, nothing less, just like that.
maybe i think too much, i think it is
therefore, for the last time,
i wish that thing will never happen, ever.

Don't fence for win, fence for the right way

Today is the 1st day i train with Adam. I feel very pleased because i learnt so many things from him. Especialy the marshe, jump, lunge. Is a new trick for me. But i still can't catch the proper method to do it. Altough very tired, i get used to it these feeling already.

When i'm think i'm a bit better on the footwork, actually i don't. Why? Because when i 'sparing' with Kimberly, she said i had so many mistake. I very nervous, especialy my footwork, not good enough. She told me don't think about win, think about your basic, becase winning is built by basic. And, i agreed with her, why? because she has more experience than me of course. In chinese there's a phrase, 不听老人言，吃亏在眼前。Meaning if you don't hear a word from 'an old folk' you will regret. And i don't want to be those person. So i must listen every advice that she or other profesional guys give me. And do it as they say. Therefore, winning or losing is not a matter for me to concern for now, is the matter of how i use the thenique with the right way.

So, my advice for myself, 'DON'T FENCE FOR WIN, FENCE FOR THE RIGHT WAY'

Feel Down

May 8th,

Today is my 6th day of training, got any improvement?
i think so, at least i didn't feel fatigue compare to last time,
but overall i still have many weakness need to improve,
my footwork, my strenght, the strategic of the game, and the list goes on.
Today i feel a bit down after the 'sparing' process,
maybe because i'm lost to other fencers,
i feel sorry to my friends like adam, edwin, amanda and jason,
they gave me a lots of good advice but i still lost the game,
i let them down, the only way to repay them is to improve my game or in other words, win the game.
losing will only make my hunger bigger, hunger for more training, and hunger for more wins.
I'm 21 now, consider old for an athlete,
so, i have to push myself because i wish i can represent sabah or malaysia for fencing.
Laura said pushing will get myself injured but, i don't have any choice.
So, i really wish my effort that put on fencing will get the result that i wish for.
Please...

Kiss-Because I'm a Girl

There are millions of songs in this world, can you choose which is your favourite song?...
When you choose it, can you guarantee the song that you choose is your all time favourite song?
Well, i don't you all but for me, i choose my favourite song depend on my feeling and the song,
If my feeling can mix with the song, then is my favourite song.
The feeling i talking about here is when i'm down (really sad), then i discover this song on youtube, really nice (damn nice). The song i talking about is Kiss-Because I'm a Girl

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya

Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego

sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde

sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso

norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika

Happy Birthday "Pig Mama"

As days pass by....
I still cant let u go from my heart after i put all my effort to love you last time,
As they said, first love is the hardest to forget,
But i already get use to it by not falling in love with you...again
all i can do is protect you silently from the back,
wishing you to be a good person every day,
wishing you to be an independant girl,
don't count on those usless boys of yours that you so called 'boyfriend'
If you let me to do so, i wish i can change you to be a good person with my own bare hands


So at last, i wish you a happy 19th birthday, Christine

the important of money these days

Girlfriend? No, definitely no for me (for now)
Why? because not enough money that's why.
without money, i cant spend my girl,
watch movie,
candle light dinner,
birthday present,
valentine's day present,
flower,
chocolate,
clothes and many more.
Maybe some of you wont agree with me coz,
most of you will think girlfriend is chase by heart not money,
yeah but your girlfriend also have to eat right?
Therefore, to maintain the love relationship,
communication and money are the main thing,
without these two, you can forget about having girlfriend.

funny fencing poem

Fencing fencing fencing,
just like other sports is all about training,
but for me is all about winning,
so i have money go to shopping.

give up on you

haiz...i feel so dissapointed on you...i try to forgive you many times but you still didn't appreciate it...because you didn't change a little bit altough you did said u changed...i start to give up on you...maybe i should follow my brain more than my heart....don't blame me....because it is you who make me do this...