Feel Down

May 8th,

Today is my 6th day of training, got any improvement?
i think so, at least i didn't feel fatigue compare to last time,
but overall i still have many weakness need to improve,
my footwork, my strenght, the strategic of the game, and the list goes on.
Today i feel a bit down after the 'sparing' process,
maybe because i'm lost to other fencers,
i feel sorry to my friends like adam, edwin, amanda and jason,
they gave me a lots of good advice but i still lost the game,
i let them down, the only way to repay them is to improve my game or in other words, win the game.
losing will only make my hunger bigger, hunger for more training, and hunger for more wins.
I'm 21 now, consider old for an athlete,
so, i have to push myself because i wish i can represent sabah or malaysia for fencing.
Laura said pushing will get myself injured but, i don't have any choice.
So, i really wish my effort that put on fencing will get the result that i wish for.
Please...